This is something I've struggled with for quite some time. I always think there is something else I can bo doing. If I just do this, I will be happy. If I can just learn to do this, things will be okay. I'm sort of a people pleaser and always strive to do what others would want me to do. I've been trying to conform myself to societies stereotypes. Doing what others think I should be doing. I didn't finish school. I'm not married. I'm a menace to society right now. I need to realize that maybe, just maybe, that's not me. I need to be okay with who I am and what I have going for me and what I have to offer. There are days when I really don't think that is much at all. I look at my life sometimes and wonder what did I do wrong? What did I do to get to where I am today? What would I have changed? What would I do over again? If I knew then what I know now, would things be different? Of course they would. But we don't get do-overs in life. I need to accept things as they are and embrace them. It's a constant struggle with me. Comparason is also something I struggle with. He has this or she did that. If only I were skinnier. If only I were smarter. If only I were prettier. If only I were more outgoing. If only I had more confidence. If only I was stronger. If only I had done this. If only.... Acceptance. Embrace it and come what may.
“Because one believes in oneself, one doesn't try to convince others. Because one is content with oneself, one doesn't need others' approval. Because one accepts oneself, the whole world accepts him or her.”
― Lao Tzu
“It was being a runner that mattered, not how fast or how far I could run. The joy was in the act of running and in the journey, not in the destination. We have a better chance of seeing where we are when we stop trying to get somewhere else. We can enjoy every moment of movement, as long as where we are is as good as where we'd like to be. That's not to say that you need to be satisfied forever with where you are today. But you need to honor what you've accomplished, rather than thinking of what's left to be done (p. 159).”
― John Bingham, No Need for Speed: A Beginner's Guide to the Joy of Running
